One more chance

after the four days of extreme roller coaster ride, i am glad that things are okay now and that i can breath and sleep better na rin.

what happened was something that i am not proud of, but i definitely learned my lesson. nadala na ika nga – nadala sa mga pangyayari. and, even though i posted on my twitter and on my statuses that "the only way to forget is to accept and move on", i cannot hide the fact that i am still ashamed with my actions. i feel like i cannot face his friends who knew about it. i feel like my image was damaged... well i bet it really did.

i'm only human, and i make mistakes too. 

god knows how much i love him, how much i care. god knows that i think about him every single day, every minute of every second. god knows all plans with him. and, god knows that even with His ways of distractions or phases, it/they can never make me love him any less. 

i am so thankful that god and yo gave me another chance. another chance to be better, to be more responsible and to be more aware with my actions. another chance to show him how important he is to me and how much i value him.

"i would rather lose my vices than to lose him"

i cannot see my life without him – not that i'm dependant, but he's my everything. it hurts to even hear or read whenever he says that maybe our relationship won't really work out or maybe there's someone better... or whatnot. for me (even if i am trying not to fully force myself to think like this but i think), he's the one. he's one of a kind! especially with the generation that we live in, i think it's hard to find someone like him. and, plus we connect in so many ways! good or bad!

... so, for this second chance, i will stay away from my vices and will always keep in mind what i have, who i have, and my limitations.

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even though i still feel like it's not the right time to show how much i care, i still made this because after all that happened it made me realized that he's someone very special to me. 

forgetting and accepting my fault(s) will be a long process to fully move on, but i am wishing for the best that everything will go back to the way it was before or even better.

*cross fingers*