Letting go in 1... 2... 3... (FINAL)

(One month has passed...)

I realized that a lot of people go through life in a harder way when they have memories at a certain place that they used to go or something, but for me, it's my laptop! My phone, my iTouch, my social networks! Ugh! It's so sad because I use these things everyday and it doesn't really help you know?!

My heart still breaks and I'm not gonna lie. I still get upset, cry, or think that I will never move on and be happy again. Pero sabi nga ng friend ko, to be able to get through this is NOT by ignoring your feelings but to embrace it. It might be a tough thing to do but I guess things will just follow as you see yourself embracing the facts, letting go of everything, and start welcoming all the new things in your life. Alam ko naman na I will be okay someday... that I will no longer think about the past, and I will be happy and free like a bird! 

Ugh! I just wish that sometimes he wouldn't have to be so cold, you know? We didn't even end the relationship in a bad way.... meh whatevs! WHATEVER! HAHA

*FROM NOW ON - after this post NO MORE! ENOUGH! I have to set myself free and be happy for myself. I will focus on the things that I love to do and the people who were there from the start... and of course the new people that I will meet!

Like I said before, IF it's God's will for us to meet in the future, then it is God's will! I will no longer think about these things. Si God na bahala dito. For sure He knows what He's doing kaya ngyayari itong mga ito, right? :)

Don't lose hope, Camille. You'll be okay real soon! :) 

I am thankful for

I am such a fail when it comes to blogging. I know I just started with the whole new segment thing but I can't keep up with the everyday update! And because of that I will sum up my updates in one blog whenever I update. I think that's better. Haha I wouldn't have to feel obligated to post everyday! 

This is has been one of my busiest and exciting week. For some reason I would always end up having a lakad even though I have work on the same day. Usually when this happens, I wouldn't go out because it would be very hassle to go to work – either I'll be late or I'll be too tired.

Monday 17th:

• RichmondReview Interview
• Lunch with Carlo and Martin in the Foundation, ordered Pesto Imprisoned and it was so delicious!
• Got myself a bible and a cloth scapular rosary
• Menchie's Froyo
• 7pm dinner with the Biz boss and workmates at a Thai restaurant

Tuesday 18th:

• Met up with ate Joy, chilled at Starbucks, and went to Oakridge mall to eat lunch
• 6pm shift at DQ

Wednesday 19th: 

• work at Biz

Thursday 20th: 

• went to metro with Jhanina
• bought some new clothes and loafers at F21
• dinner at Steveston for dad's bday

Friday 21st: 

• work at Biz
• Campus Based GA
• Martin, Krystel, and I walked around Burnaby only to find out the Bubble World was full, had to go back to 22nd street and decided to eat in STea
• Dinner at 1am, YES YES YO!
• Walked Krystel to her house which was 15-20mins walk and it was at 2am already
• Martin and I took a cab and got home around 2:45am
• FUN-YOLO-DAY!

Saturday 22nd: 

• Yfc collective at 12pm
• Church at 6pm
• Dinner at White Spot with the Macalisang sibs, Christine & Michelle Buyser, and Alexis

Sunday 23rd: 

• dance at 3pm
• adrian, martin, and kris went by the house and had lunch
• we then went to richmond centre to buy bubble tea

Last week was such a lakwatsa week and now I am trying to stay at home more often because I am SO broke! I don't even know when I can have enough money again to pay my credit card in full. I have to stop spending so much and going out because it's not helping at all.

Anyway, more updates soon! I have so many things to tell but I just don't know where to start! :P

Things to be thankful for 01

I will start a new segment on my blog and it's called, "Things to be thankful for today". I got this idea from ate Joy (who was my teacher back in high school). She told me that one of the ways that helped her moved on from her last relationship was to count each blessings that she received/encountered in her everyday life. It doesn't have to be extravagant, kahit small little things lang that made you happy/smile.

So here's mine for today:

• was able to finish a design that wasn't a business card design and our client liked it
• yfc famjam, i still have that post HLT camp feeling
• cc/crush, whenever i see his pictures online, i can't help but get all kilig! oo, mababaw ako! guilty as charge! ;) 
• very supportive friends all over the world

What's yours? :)

10 Day Photo Challenge: Day 2

At exactly a year ago, it was September 11th 2011...

and in this photo:

- the top was from Winners and the black wedges were from Zara.

- the girls and i had a mini photo shoot before heading to our lakwatsa

- i had blisters after that day because wala akong socks and bago pa yung wedge! :/

Anyway, nothing has changed! Haha!

10 Day Photo Challenge: Day 1

1. i used my itouch to take this photo and uploaded it on my instagram

2. this photo was taken right after i tried my first urban naked palette 1 make up

3. it was taken during the night

4. it was also taken on december but i am re-using it again today

5. my hair there was just ironed

(photo challenge was taken from kiana v.)

today's realization:

Being in a situation where everything is so fresh, I know that from time to time I will be upset. I will cry like there's no tomorrow but I will try my very best to not grieve so much because it was over.

I am excited to see what God has in store for me

Today, I've decided that as early as now I should start opening my eyes, my heart, and my mind to the new things that are and will be coming my way. And plus, this is not the only thing that can make me happy and definitely not the only thing that can complete me, right?

In all honesty, yes I am scared. I fear that I won't be able to go on with my life without this person. I fear that I wouldn't be as happy or as complete without him by my side. That I will be alone forever or I wouldn't be able to find somebody who will love and treat me the way he did. 

Pero sabi nga ng friend ko, "Life is all about taking risks, taking chances, and letting things happen unexpectedly. Sometimes if you plan, yun pa yung hindi natutupad. Life is full of surprises..." 

TAMA, diba?!

I know that I am stronger than this, that I am better. And, that is why I decided that I am going to accept God's will no matter how hard or how long it takes. I know that He won't abandon me just like that. I know that He has a greater plan for me and this is just a part of His challenges that I need to go through so that in the future I can handle this way better than I did before. Or even, I wouldn't have to go through all these at all.

I have no regrets. I loved him with all my heart and I guess I will always do. He wasn't only just a boyfriend... he was my best friend. Despite the distance, he was always there for me. He was able to inspire me, guide me, teach me, remind me, and made me become the person i am now. If given a chance that our paths will meet again, and the feelings are still there, then maybe. I guess by that time it is God's will na that we are for each other talaga. 

But as for now, I am going to focus with myself, my career, my relationship with my family, friends, and God.

Anyway, I found this poem online and I thought that I should share it. :)

SET MYSELF FREE  

A sigh but not flowing with relief

A mind thats in its height of disbelief  

Clouded thoughts that love to be lost 

Lost in a bitter sweet defeat 

Like a charm that cannot be broken 

Or a lock for that there can be no key 

These feelings are overtaking 

My body and mind in a constant aching 

Waiting for someone or something to impact  

A calm salvation that will leave my soul intact 

A shake, a kick, a heavy hand 

Anything to release me from this quicksand 

Alas, nothing comes, no life changing act 

When will this story have an impact? 

Life is what you make it I hear everyone say 

But the route of the cause seems so adament to stay    

For it seems that I am the only one to set myself free 

One step at a time, it's a new beginning for me