One more chance

after the four days of extreme roller coaster ride, i am glad that things are okay now and that i can breath and sleep better na rin.

what happened was something that i am not proud of, but i definitely learned my lesson. nadala na ika nga – nadala sa mga pangyayari. and, even though i posted on my twitter and on my statuses that "the only way to forget is to accept and move on", i cannot hide the fact that i am still ashamed with my actions. i feel like i cannot face his friends who knew about it. i feel like my image was damaged... well i bet it really did.

i'm only human, and i make mistakes too. 

god knows how much i love him, how much i care. god knows that i think about him every single day, every minute of every second. god knows all plans with him. and, god knows that even with His ways of distractions or phases, it/they can never make me love him any less. 

i am so thankful that god and yo gave me another chance. another chance to be better, to be more responsible and to be more aware with my actions. another chance to show him how important he is to me and how much i value him.

"i would rather lose my vices than to lose him"

i cannot see my life without him – not that i'm dependant, but he's my everything. it hurts to even hear or read whenever he says that maybe our relationship won't really work out or maybe there's someone better... or whatnot. for me (even if i am trying not to fully force myself to think like this but i think), he's the one. he's one of a kind! especially with the generation that we live in, i think it's hard to find someone like him. and, plus we connect in so many ways! good or bad!

... so, for this second chance, i will stay away from my vices and will always keep in mind what i have, who i have, and my limitations.

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even though i still feel like it's not the right time to show how much i care, i still made this because after all that happened it made me realized that he's someone very special to me. 

forgetting and accepting my fault(s) will be a long process to fully move on, but i am wishing for the best that everything will go back to the way it was before or even better.

*cross fingers*

Don't do to others what you don't want others do to you

i am very disappointed with myself. there was no reason for me to do such thing and absolutely no reason for me to hurt somebody. i was aware. i had a choice, but i let it happen. why? i don't exactly know. it happened too fast... which i still think that it is not enough to to defend myself because it was wrong. i was wrong. how can i be so stupid? how can i just let myself do this? fuck!

i would like to say sorry and ask for an apology but sorry is not enough. and, i know that accepting an apology from somebody you have hurt you is a long process to fully forget and move on.

shit, camille! what were you thinking?! tanga mo lang. nadala sa emotion? nadala sa 'i feel bad'?

:( i know you are very disappointed in me. i know that it's not very easy to forget and i understand, but i am really, really, really sorry and i wish someday you'll be able to forgive me. i love you, but if you feel like i've hurt you too much and doesn't want this anymore, i'd understand.

I'm Sorry.

the Amazing Spider-Man

My fambam just saw the Amazing Spider-Man 3D movie and I must say that I like this version more than the first one. It felt more natural.

In all honesty, I didn't really find Andrew Garfield cute or hot like what people say when The Social Network was out, but damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn he's so gwapo in The Amazing Spider-Man! My eyes went all heartsy on him! It must be his body built and looks in Spider-Man. I think he looks a lot better sa Spiderman... or di ko lang talaga siya type noon? :/ 


As for Emma Stone, she's so beautiful! And, same as Andrew, I wasn't really a fan of Emma on her previous movies, but for some reason, I am starting to like her. I bet it's because of her blonde hair. I think she looks prettier with it. She looks mature and classier.


This movie is a MUST SEE movie.
♥

When there is love there is no distance

Before the clock turns 12 and becomes July 6th, I would just like to greet my boypren a Happy 43rd!

(This image up here was a compilation of iMessage conversations and our one 

and only letter size photo together.)

Love, Mimi

Call It What You Want

Foster The People | Kimbra | Mayer Hawthorne

My siblings and I went to Foster the People's concert last week. At first I was very hesitant to go because the only familiar song I know from FTP was Pumped Up Kicks. I even remember lying to my sister about me knowing FTP very well and that I listen to their songs when I really don't. But for some reason, I thought it would be a good opportunity to go out, listen to new music, and have a day with my siblings again.

Sea of People